Changing Roads

Friday 13th April 2007
Last week my partner changed the living room around so that the new plasnma TV (if it ever comes) would hang on the wall above the ugly looking radiator. I repeatedly told him it was not a good idea; I didn't like the room organised that way. His reply to that was that it would look much better if I put a set of old dusky pink curtains over the two sofas as they are not the same.
I thought to myself "Is he having a laugh?, I know for sure that he would never like that kind thing"
"Anyway", I told him, "Those curtains remind me of my mum" (who died a few years back)
Then last night he changed the living room back the other way and draped the curtains over the sofas after all that I had said.
He then came into the bedroom where I was concentrating on studying and began to crash about in the bedroom by slinging his metal tools into big plastic boxes; not that that was enough he was doing it right behind where I was sitting.
Now you tell me, is that something someone does that loves and cares for you or something a person does that has got some plan going on in his head.
All I keep saying to him is "Are you trying to get to me that much that I up and leave, coz if you are, your going about it in the wrong way, the more it goes on the more I'll get through it" (hence my publishing it all over the world)
Well I've got to get some advice from somewhere !!
If you saw his baby mother's home; it's like a palace, ultra modern etc. so I know he must be taking the mick or has he just lost it?

Friday 13th April 2007

I can not believe the audacity of my partner (if he really is one).
I'm not sure if the idea came directly from him or not but I have no choice but to accept what I have been thinking for a long time.
He has been doing things to agrivate and confuse me, well trying very hard to. If it wasn't for the fact that we have both been on the drug scene he could never have got away with it.
Now I am no longer using drugs it has become transparant - what he is up to.
For example:
We have just moved into a flat; he has done nothing apart from create a mess. He starts aproject like setting up his hi-fi (his one and only project) but all he does is spreads all his tools over the bedroom floor.
(In fact tomorrow I am going to buy a digital camera so I can prove it to you)
For so long he has done silly things in front of groups of people such as taken all the wheels out of clipper lighters; accidently on purpose hidden all lighters because he knows I get annoyed by it.
This may sound silly to you but after some time it gets too much.
He has me convinced that our relationship, life is chatted about (rappers style) on a radio station but he just keeps telling me I am crazy.
I'm not crazy; maybe that is not happening but one thing is for sure he is going out of his way to try and make me believe it is happening.
This is why from now on I am going to post it on this blog and let you work it out.
One things for sure he may be blogging it around london but I'm gonna blog it all over the world

Hi
I am at a turning point in my life going from bad to new - changing direction after such a long time stuck in a world of drug addiction. I am doing a writing course so that I can share my wisdom with the world in the hope that better things will come out of it.